I wonder
I wonder if there are any guys who would like to take an old fashioned kinda girl like me out on an old fashioned dinner date? I mean I like sex as much as the next girl but there is more to me than that. Just once I wanna be taken out and be treated like a lady.

I wonder if and when I ever get asked out if he will continue to call and ask me out again even if I don't "put out" on the first one.

I wonder if a guy will ever wanna get to know me,and not just to get into my panties have sex and leave. But fine out what my favorite color is or song or anything that makes me who I am.

I wonder if a guy would like to be my friend? Not just an acquaintance, or friends with benefits. But someone to walk with and talk with,hold hands and kiss while we walk, hang out with.

I wonder if I will ever feel the touch of a man? and again not just during sex. But while he holds me in his arms while we sleep.

I wonder if I will ever be able to give my heart full of love away to a guy and get his in return? Instead of getting it back broken and empty.

I wonder if I will ever feel the warmth of the love of a good man? instead of the cold of loneliness?

I wonder if there is a a guy somewhere thinking and wondering like me?

I just wonder...

I was out with a friend who wanted to stop at Books A Million to look around for a bit and see what they had and were all about and maybe get somethin while we were there. So after lookin around abit I went up to the store clerk at the front on the store and asked about a couple of books I just finished by a couple of Transgender authors. I found out I could get them special order which is cool, so I asked the clerk in the store if they had any books about Transgenderism or by Trans authors. His answer surprised me alittle when he told me that the store won't do more for the GLBT community for bein a "christian" book store and was even more surprised as my friend paid for the "50 shades of Grey" trilogy that deals with bondage. HMMmmm I guess they don't read what they sell.

I went for a walk this evenin just me and my mp3 player and as I was walkin I thought how nice it would be to have someone to walk with, ya know someone to hold my hand and maybe steal a kiss or two.
Someone to talk to at times is nice or share a soda with. Ya know some one who would treat me like a lady. I don't care what people would say cause I live full time and I try to ignore all the negitive attention but just once it'd be great to have someone deffend my honer.
I'm already showin the town that I live in that I am here and I mean to stay.
I know I'm married and I love my wife very deeply for all her love, acceptance and support she gives and I would never do anything to damage what we have, but I long for the touch of a man sometimes. There are no secrets between us I mean she can have a girl friend as well if she likes.
I am a very lucky person and I am thankfull everyday. Most times I can keep my longin for a boy friend away and out of my mind but then there are times I feel very lonely.
Oh well I guess I'll just keep doin what I'm doin and maybe someday I'll fill the spot but till then I'll do my best not to bust out cryin while out by my self.

I went for a walk this evenin just me and my mp3 player and as I was walkin I thought how nice it would be to have someone to walk with, ya know someone to hold my hand and maybe steal a kiss or two.
Someone to talk to at times is nice or share a soda with. Ya know some one who would treat me like a lady. I don't care what people would say cause I live full time and I try to ignore all the negitive attention but just once it'd be great to have someone deffend my honer.
I'm already showin the town that I live in that I am here and I mean to stay.
I know I'm married and I love my wife very deeply for all her love, acceptance and support she gives and I would never do anything to damage what we have, but I long for the touch of a man sometimes. There are no secrets between us I mean she can have a girl friend as well if she likes.
I am a very lucky person and I am thankfull everyday. Most times I can keep my longin for a boy friend away and out of my mind but then there are times I feel very lonely.
Oh well I guess I'll just keep doin what I'm doin and maybe someday I'll fill the spot but till then I'll do my best not to bust out cryin while out by my self.

Just relaxin abit anyone wanna join me let me know

Well ya'll it's been a long day and I'm tired I see ya tomarrow,
sweet dreams ya'll

I might be lookin to have some fun on my web cam if anyone wants to play or watch let me know and I'll tell ya where I'm gonna be

I wonder if I became a came girl if people would pay to see me naked??

I wish sometimes that there were more people like me around me. I mean I do have some very special friends and all but I just wish sometimes I had some one to walk with or somethin like that.
I get lonely sometimes but I get by. I love where I live but people can be so mean but I don't let them scare me I just lie my live and for the most part walk on by.

Hey Ya'll

I just wanted to stop in and say hello and let ya know ya can also visit me at Rainbow Mix Radio. Just drop me a note if ya like and I'll send ya the link.

Thanks
Samantha