So last week on my Birthday my ex came over one thing lead to another and I sucked his cock again. After he ejaculated he says to me in an exhausted tone "how in the hell are you so good at that" Started thinking about it a bit. Besides having lots and lots of practice over the years with a few select Men I am just really obsessed with sucking cock to completion. I take it as a challenge that every time I am with a man he is going to cum. My technique comes natural and with some refinement over the years. I have only done it with maybe 8 or 9 guys in my life but some of them were multiple times with Gerry being the most topping out at over 60 times in a 15 month span. Tony would be 2nd at 30-35 times in a year. Bruce third at 20 plus times over 2 1/2 years. He likes Fucking me a lot so theres that. The rest were once or twice. I know this sounds pretty strange but it is my Blog.
Anyhow it does scare me how much I think about doing it each day. I really need to find a new boyfriend and soon.

I know I am a male physically but emotional I am more female. I am not someone who dresses for a sexual thrill it really is something that makes me feel right. Anyhow random thoughts. I so wish to have a boyfriend. Not just someone to have sex with once in a while when he can get away from his wife but a real friend and lover that I can see a few nights or days a week. Anyhow looking for some friendly people.
KARA

Back together with Tony. He is the guy that wanted me to have sex with his friend. been real respectful since our blowout. He fills a need but not my ideal partner. Would rather have a man I can see more regular and a bit better endowed. Nothing wrong with a small penis but when it comes to getting laid I prefer men that are a bit above average. anyhow Ill keep him around till I can find my true love

Updating my fall wardrobe. Tossed a some older stuff I new I would never wear again or doesn't fit. Now spent $400 on new skirts, dresses, and tops alone. Still need some new lingerie and jewelry. Also tossed my last bf. Hated to do it but he pissed me off so bad. Wouldn't listen to me it was all about what he wanted and when.

So for the past 2 months I have been seeing a guy named Tony. He is a bit older 57. Great shape and looks good for his age. See him every Friday and on occasion Tuesday nights. Problem is he starts out cool and easy going but then gets real aggressive. There are times I just want to give a nice blow job but almost always insist on fucking me. I am not opposed to anal by any means but not every time. The last 2 times we met up while he was fucking me he would stop pull out take off his condom and finish inside me bareback. I do admit I always wanted to try it that way but he doesn't even ask. Now he called me and promised he would listen to me more but said a friend of his is also into TV's and wants me to meet him. I know what he wants to happen he has said a few times he wants to be fucking me and watch me suck another guy at the same time. I know a lot of us have this fantasy but I don't know anything about this guy. Is he safe? Is he nice or violent? He showed me a picture and he looks average at best. But what happens after. Am I expected to take care of him to whenever they want. I sometimes think I would like to get out of this relationship but I have no one else. I wonder how he would react. He knows where I live would he do something crazy. I don't know

So about 10 years back I met this guy who I had been chatting with for a few days. It was a Saturday afternoon and I was extremely worked up for some reason. Anyhow he had bragged about how good he was and all. He shows up at my place. Not bad looking but real nervous. I was dressed in pinstripe mini skirt with matching jacket, white blouse heels, makeup etc. I take him in the bedroom and he couldn't really talk he was so nervous. Told him to get naked. He had a real nice body and long kinda thin cock hard as can be. I handed him a condom he tried putting it on but was shaking so bad so I put it on him right away he came up behind me so I told him calm down. Took off my panties and skirt rubbed so lube on me and him. before I knew it he was sticking it in my bum. Before I could even realize it he was in and screaming then was out of me. All in about 10 seconds. Put on his clothes while I am getting off the bed says he has to go and runs down the steps, trips and falls then leaves. Think he still had the condom on. I was so pissed. Grab my vibrator and finished myself off. Later on I had to laugh about it all.

Does anybody have any funny stories about encounters they have had. Men or TS/Cd. I have a few if anyone is interested I'll blog about them.

So since I was 13 I knew I was different. Spent the early parts of my life trying to deny it but you can't fight who you are. I don't dress female for sexual reason I do it because it,s who I am. Until I was in my early 30's I only had heterosexual relationships. It was difficult on me because few women would accept my female side. I finally decided to try sex with a man. One that would treat me strictly as a woman. Wow. That's what comes to mind it was like a whole new world opened up to me. The greatest experience of my life and I knew exactly who I am since then. I have had a number of boyfriends since then but none last. All though men my enjoy the sex and hanging out with me I haven't found any that want to make a lasting relationship that they aren't ashamed of. So be it. It's the life I choose. But sometimes the loneliness really sucks when you go a long time without someone to spend time with and it really sucks when your someone like me who has a very high sex drive and no one you can trust to satisfy me.

Often wonder if a cd in her 40's can ever find a real relationship. Takes a special man to really want to develop a meaningful relationship with my type. Sure plenty of guys that want to get off with a gurl which I get. Truth is I have had meaningless sex plenty of times in the past with women in my earlier days and with a few men. I don't necessarily need a man to live with but someone I can see 2,3 or 4 times a week for companionship and sex would be nice.

Began dressing when I was 13. Over the years I tried to live a normal life but always fell back into x-dressing at time. 18 years ago after a woman I truly loved left me I became more involved in cross dressing. Bought more and more clothes then makeup, wigs and finally breast forms. Although I always considered myself straight I began experiment with men. Make a long story short I find my true nature is female and over the last 15 years all my relationships and sexual activity has been with men almost exclusively. I have been in love with a few men and many friends with benefits situations. Also a few one night stands some against my better judgment and one horrible situation which I may blog about sometime.