Not a lot here as kind of quiet next to some other blogs which I believe are a bit embellished. I've so been looking for some men's undies which are like girls panties as I love so much wearing girls as they are more comfortable and definitely sexier and I feel them all day when wearing. Wife doesn't know how much I love to wear and fully dress and really doesn't know I love to dress and be with men and definitely she doesn't want me wearing her panties. So I found some male undies which she has seen and they are sex and I think they are really girls panties marketed to men so we'll see how this goes over with the wife as they are men's undies. I have a pair on right now and the are sexy bikini style, microfiber, somewhat see through and my cock outline in them is to die for or I hope the men I see think that. Anyway, for those in the closet with me just thought I'd give you an update on my pantie buying and will post here my wife's comments should I get any. Hugs to all, Lacy

I've meet someone married and close by who likes to dress too so we are working out the details of how to get together. She asked me about my first real experience with a man so thought I'd post my answer here. Hope you enjoy.

Yes my first experience with a man though few and far between was wonderful and more than i thought it could be and scary with guilt as I had hosted him while wife was out of town which probably wasn't a smart thing to do. But when I get that fem feeling inside I just can't control it and had talked with him several times and he lived close by. I fully dressed very, very sexy in all lace lingerie with garter and hose and a tight white skirt, very short, lovely brunette wig with full makeup. I don't like to tuck so the tight skirt this show how I was feeling. Somehow, I was nervous at all as it just seemed right as we sat at our bar and drank wine and chatted. He finally leaned over and kissed me and that was it as it was all wet tongue hard and long as I turned to him on the bar stool and his hand up my skirt to find me fem 8"cock waiting to bust out of my lace panties. I put my hand on his crotch and found his tool quite erect though not as big as mine but that didn't matter as all as I just wanted this man to want me fem. It was fun kissing and playing around and stripping too fast but he asked for me to take his cloths off which I did and he could see my full erection thru my tight white skirt. He was smaller than me with a nice body standing there all nude as asked me to get on my knees which I did as a gurl should and sucked his hard cock, licked his thighs as I was in love with being fem for him. From there is was my turn and he unzipped me and loved me in my lace A cup bra. He took the garter off and the hose and heels as he wanted to take me in the bra and panty. I asked if we could kiss and cuddle some more and drink more wine as I knew I needed to slow down and he agreed but neither of our erections went down but we were able to touch, caress and drink and kiss till we knew what was going to happen. He told me to take him to our bedroom as he wanted me there as this wasn't his first time but he was turning dom and I liked it. To be taken in the bed where I sleep and have had sex with my wife was not only a guilty feeling but quite a turn on. So in to bed we went and it was so erotic till my wife called to say good night to me. Phone by the bed so had to answer and talk about being a bit out of breath and uncomfortable to say the least. My date was good about it but while I talked to her he was kiss my breasts, my thighs, my erect cock and was a bit hard to talk normal and she sensed it but told her I'd just got off the treadmill and she bought it. It good night, love you and then back to his loving me and me returning. Before I knew it he had slipped his cock into me and that scared me being bareback as I'd heard so much about being care but it was too late and must say it felt so good to be the woman at that time. He didn't cum in me but did cum in my mouth and it was the first cum I'd eaten since I was a kid other than my own which I do eat a lot. I slipped a nightie on after we'd both cum and we cuddled and kissed and then he had to get back to his wife though it was almost midnight as he'd told here he was going out with the boys. Which wasn't total lie.

It was a nice time and to this day think about it when lying next to my wife at night. Some of the guilt is gone but I accept who I am and don't think that'll change. It's always nice to find others who are much like me and love being fem, a woman and yet keep their family jewels. I guess I'm just fem and queer.

Being married, queer and loving to dress and she doesn't know is difficult but I manage. It's just hard when you feel so fem sexy and want to let it out much like last night. I was feeling horny, sexy and fem and in a nice pair of panties under some light shorts and a tee shirt. It was dark outside and told the wife I was going to get the mail which I did and is soon as I hit the street I took my tee shirt off and shorts and walked to the mail box just in these lovely fem panties and so wanted to be discovered and taken advantage of as I got so hard in the panties thinking of it. Always a fear to get caught with someone coming out or a neighbors car coming down the street but that didn't happen. It's amazing what I've done when my fem urge gets the best of me. Yes I did cum in the panties, got the mail, put my shorts and tee on and came back into the house with the wife not know how queer and fem her husband is and loves it. Hugs to all!
Lacy

I just had a wonderful massage which I always love to have and don't jump to conclusions as there was no happy ending. This masseuse we used for a long time and when I first used him I got a hard on and I'm 8" when hard that was rocking and so wanted him to finish it but he was a straight. He didn't know I was queer at all as he massages my wife too. He said it happens once in awhile due to the feeling generated by the massage. I so would have paid him extra to blow me or just give me a hand job. Didn't happen. So today same guy with a wonderful massage and all I could think about was not my erection but how queer I've become, how I love a man making love to me more than a women and so feeling needed by a man. Would so love to cum out of the closet but there would be too much pain to many so I remain closed but immediately put on a pair of panties got a glass of Gentlegurl Jack and here I am like a gurl pouring my guts out. What does a gurl to do? Many post a lot of sexual experiences and I've had mine but not enough as so closeted but wondering why as I sit here in this silky pantie which outlines my cock so delightfully as men have noticed and enjoyed. This is like therapy for and like cumming out as those that can relate will read and hopefully reply. I know when I post this that my panties will be wet and I'll cum and then I'm good for awhile playing the straight father and husband but I'm not that man but the gurl that's under. Hugs to those of you who read this and do hope to hear from you.... Lacyfem

Perhaps a mistake but I do have two lovely children. During this marriage I really didn't cross dress at all as to busy trying to make a living and raise the kids. Once divorced I dated a lot with lots of sex with women but no men and now look at that as opportunity lost. I met a wonderful woman and married again and am still married to her though she doesn't know I love to dress and love to be with men when dressed. A hard life to live but it works so far. However, for several years I did not dress while with her until one night I had back pain and slipped out of bed to the carpet with a comforter to slip on. She had dropper her panties right there on the carpet before slipping into bed and yes I slipped them on and my dressing was reignited as I came in them almost immediately. Fortunately, I found I could wear all her bra's and panties and many of her skirts but did have to get my own heels though I don't have big feet. Being self employed we just a few employees I was able to have my privacy when they went home and was able to dress and rekindle my fem side as I would shiver when I pulled out a pantie and bra to put on and it was such a feeling to set free when I stripped down naked in the middle of our warehouse and slip on my fem pantie and bra with heels. At that time I took polaroids and loved seeing me be fem.
I also started shaving which the wife didn't like but reluctantly accepted after awhile as I didn't stop and said I just like not having hair. I mostly at this time dressed at work and with a private parking lot love strutting out into the parking lot just in a pantie, bra and heels as it was such a free feeling. I would walk out the driveway so cars going by would see me and loved it so my cross dressing was reignited and was to become something in which I recognized my fem side for real and questioned by years of not dressing.

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I know my blog is not as exciting as some but my life as a crossdresser has be quite lovely despite having had to keep it in the closet. I know that most here are the same and though we'd like to let ourselves out as girls, society still doesn't accept us besides being married and her not knowing is important to me. Once out of high school and off to college I pretty much stopped yet so missed wearing mom's pantie's bra's hose and heels but now I was out into the big bad world and I was more afraid of someone finding out and besides I was more interested in women than men so the dressing had to be put aside. I did have one gay encounter with an older man whom I met at the YMCA and he had asked me to wrestle which was something I'd never done but said he'd teach me. Well he did that as almost every move we were in he was feel my cock and balls. That scared me a bit because I had never had a man on man encounter but I was courteous and kind of liked it. He invited me out one night for dinner and I was wondering about it as he had a wedding ring on. We chatted and had a lovely dinner and as he was driving he wanted to stop by his office as needed to get some papers. We'd already been drinking, I'm 20 and a bit drunk and he offered me some bourbon and if you'd read my early posting you'd know what bourbon does to me. He had a nice office, plush carpet and said he'd like to show me a wrestling move which I was fine with. I got me in a hold and was able to un zip my pants which shocked me but I didn't stop him as I was drunk and I hadn't gotten myself off in a few days. He asked if I minded and I say no as I was getting hard and he knew he was going to get me in one way or another. He stood up and stripped in front of me and as he was older he had a nice body and his cock was fully erect and I was so happy I could do that to a man. I was just unzipped at that time and he laid me flat crouched over me and started kissing me tongue and all and I was returning it with fervor. He got up and pulled my pants off, my manly undies off and my shirt and loved my 8" cock but I could tell he had experience as he didn't just get me off but wanted to wrestle naked which turned out to be not violent but soft touching moves which involve lots of touching our cocks to each others bodies and to each others cock. It was so erotic and I was loving it though some of my inhibition was the alcohol. Never the less I was enjoying myself. I loved being kissed and having someone touch me like he touched. I wasn't a virgin with women as had been with a few since high school but not like this as he sexually knew what he was doing and so how to turn me on kissing my body, my lips and avoiding my cock knowing it was stay very hard without his having to touch it. I was young and pre cum was evident as it was on him and he has me lick his cock and being the first time I liked what I tasted and wanted more so I took his cock into my mouth and it was fun listening to him moan as I licked the head and shaft like I was experience. He told me he knew I was a faggot the first time we wrestled as I didn't object to his grabbing my cock and balls. I told him I didn't know I was a faggot either until this night with him. It was quite a night as though no fucking we did blow and eat cum and it made for a good start to my loving to be with a man.

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I know my blog is not as exciting as some but my life as a crossdresser has be quite lovely despite having had to keep it in the closet. I know that most here are the same and though we'd like to let ourselves out as girls, society still doesn't accept us besides being married and her not knowing is important to me. Once out of high school and off to college I pretty much stopped yet so missed wearing mom's pantie's bra's hose and heels but now I was out into the big bad world and I was more afraid of someone finding out and besides I was more interested in women than men so the dressing had to be put aside. I did have one gay encounter with an older man whom I met at the YMCA and he had asked me to wrestle which was something I'd never done but said he'd teach me. Well he did that as almost every move we were in he was feel my cock and balls. That scared me a bit because I had never had a man on man encounter but I was courteous and kind of liked it. He invited me out one night for dinner and I was wondering about it as he had a wedding ring on. We chatted and had a lovely dinner and as he was driving he wanted to stop by his office as needed to get some papers. We'd already been drinking, I'm 20 and a bit drunk and he offered me some bourbon and if you'd read my early posting you'd know what bourbon does to me. He had a nice office, plush carpet and said he'd like to show me a wrestling move which I was fine with. I got me in a hold and was able to un zip my pants which shocked me but I didn't stop him as I was drunk and I hadn't gotten myself off in a few days. He asked if I minded and I say no as I was getting hard and he knew he was going to get me in one way or another. He stood up and stripped in front of me and as he was older he had a nice body and his cock was fully erect and I was so happy I could do that to a man. I was just unzipped at that time and he laid me flat crouched over me and started kissing me tongue and all and I was returning it with fervor. He got up and pulled my pants off, my manly undies off and my shirt and loved my 8" cock but I could tell he had experience as he didn't just get me off but wanted to wrestle naked which turned out to be not violent but soft touching moves which involve lots of touching our cocks to each others bodies and to each others cock. It was so erotic and I was loving it though some of my inhibition was the alcohol. Never the less I was enjoying myself. I loved being kissed and having someone touch me like he touched. I wasn't a virgin with women as had been with a few since high school but not like this as he sexually knew what he was doing and so how to turn me on kissing my body, my lips and avoiding my cock knowing it was stay very hard without his having to touch it. I was young and pre cum was evident as it was on him and he has me lick his cock and being the first time I liked what I tasted and wanted more so I took his cock into my mouth and it was fun listening to him moan as I licked the head and shaft like I was experience. He told me he knew I was a faggot the first time we wrestled as I didn't object to his grabbing my cock and balls. I told him I didn't know I was a faggot either until this night with him. It was quite a night as though no fucking we did blow and eat cum and it made for a good start to my loving to be with a man.

I was so hooked wearing my mothers bras, panties, hose and heels that I started to branch out into other Mom's and daughters panties and bras in the neighborhood. Because we lived where women had cloths lines it was easy to steal from them hoping no one was looking. I never got greedy but would just take one bra and pantie or just a pantie if there were only pantie's which mostly there were. I'd slip those on in a nice secluded spot outside and masturbate in them and keep them on as knowing I was going to steal a pantie or two I wouldn't wear underwear. When at a friends house I would go into the master bathroom and into his mom's hamper and rummage through the cloths to get a nice juicy pantie for me to put on later. I mostly took panties and as bras were more bulky and didn't want my friends to know I was stealing their mom's lingerie. The other way I'd get my lingerie was being a baby sitter which was great because once I got the kids to bed I would be all over the lingerie of the lady of the house trying on everything she had, hose, heels, bras, panties and hoping the little ones wouldn't wake up and find me all fem. Those were fun nights and by the time the parents came home I was in front of the TV and their not knowing I was going home wearing her lovely underwear with a bra tucked away for me to wear later. These younger years of my fetish were fun and exciting and only wish that I could have come out to someone so I could have shared this wonderful fem side I keep in side me. I often wonder if they every really noticed that they had lingerie missing. Most women have such a nice selection I kind of doubt it.

From this first time where I got drunk and put on my Mom's pantie and bra was just a start as I couldn't stop thinking about wearing more of her things but mostly her lingerie. I knew that getting her bra's and panties out of the hamper was safe as they were dirty and it was not likely she'd see the cum in them which I so loved to see oozing through the pantie and I came in them. I so loved the smooth feeling of of her full cut nylon pantie against my cock and jerking off rubbing that smooth pantie was even more exciting. And yes, I know what you're thinking, did I smell her dirty panties. Yessssssssssss I did and loved the smell and the taste as I guess this was the start of my perverted ways. I knew it was wrong but it was so exciting and I would get exciting thinking about putting on her lingerie while I was at school and would hope she wasn't home when I got back from school so I could slip my boy cloths off and become the girl I loved to be in her pantie's and bra's as well as her pantie hose. Had to careful with the hose as to not tear it as so many of you like me know to be careful when putting on your hose. I would put on her lingerie as often as possible and if not I would think about it and rub my cock ejaculating think about being a girl.

I remember this first time I dressed and would love to know how others fount this wonderful fetish. For me I guess it's become more than a fetish as so love to dress for a man so I guess I just love being a gurl and lovely cloths and sexy lingerie are a plus to those feelings. I'll just start this blog with how I started and add to as time goes on and love to know others feelings.

My first experience was kind of instant one early evening when I was 10 about to turn eleven. I had by this time been masturbating for 3 years having be taught about that by a neighbor who was older and thought so cool seeing all that lovely white sperm shoot out on his belly. So I was on my way sexually. My parents loved to throw parties and one evening they had early cocktails at our home for about 8 friends and then go to dinner. They were a bit tanked by the time they left and didn't clean up so there were lots of unfinished drinks left behind. So in that I hadn't any alcohol I was curious and started sampling all the drinks from vodka to the bourbon which was my dads favorite. Have to admit I did like the bourbon the best. It didn't take long before I got that lovely buzz and was feeling really as I'm sure many of you can relate to. At that age I was always horny and jerking off a lot feeling so high I took off all my cloths and started stroking my lovely cock which was beautiful and hairless at that time but was a good 6" and soon to grow to 8" as I mature. I lay back on a our couch and sipped the bourbon and stroke myself. I so enjoyed being naked and hard and so drunk I guess. I came on myself and scooped up my cum and ate it as I loved the way it tasted and also ate it making it easy to clean up. I felt I wasn't quite satisfied so that's when I ventured into mom's bathroom and pulled out her dirty panties and bra's and proceeded to try them on. Full cute panties in that era made of silky nylon and as soon as I put them on I got hard again and loved the way my cock looked all hard outlined against that silky materiel which felt so good running my hands over my cock and feeling the smooth material barely holding my cock. I slipped her bra on next which was a lovely lacy C cup bra and obviously I didn't fill it out so stuffed her other panties into the bra cups to fill them out. I'm sure you're thinking did I smell the dirty panties and yes I did and a loved that smell. It all felt so good and girly and I loved the way I looked in her full length mirror. So I slipped a pair of her heels on and took my glass of bourbon and walked around the house feel fem, horny and drunk. My cock was not going down in those panties and I just wandered the house not sure what I was feeling but I was definitely feeling my cock through those panties. It was evening and getting dark so I wandered out into the yard which gave me a real free feeling and the first time I loved being a girl. I walked all around our house as the yard went all around and was hoping someone wouldn't pop in to see me though it was unlikely. I finally came around to the front laid on the grass on my back and stroked my cock and came again but this time into her panties. I was in heaven but I was also very drunk as the first experience with alcohol. I managed to get inside and take the panties out of the bra and sniffed them all before putting them back into the hamper. Then the panties all wet with my cum which I sucked out before putting them into the hamper. It had been a about 2 hours and was barely able to walk I was so drunk and in trouble if they came home early. I'm sure if the right person came home I would have given them my cherry without hesitation I was so drunk but instead I got to my bathroom, threw up and went to bed. The following morning my mother told me to be careful with the alcohol as she knew I'd thrown up as obviously I hadn't cleaned up to well. I was just hoping she didn't see the cum stain in her panties which she didn't. This was my start to being fem and loving so much to wear panties, bra's and all lingerie. I didn't give much thought to what I was at the time but just knew when I slipped a pantie and bra on I got hard and loved cumming in them. At this time of my life I didn't think about being bi or gay but just loved being fem and it was a wonderful and memorall start to my cross dressing