I know this isn't the right forum for this but need to express my feelings.
I am starved for real human connection and have been for a very long time. I'm married but I don't think she has feelings for me any more. We are still together for the kid's sake.
I met a trans girl in Grindr and thought that we had a connection. Sparks were flying in our chats. Or, at least, they were for me.
I would anxiously await her messages and rack my brains for witty replies. I made her (text) laugh many times.
I thought we had a thing going.
Just now I found out that the feelings are probably one sided. She is with a partner.
I am actually quite amazed at the depth of disappointment, sadness and loss I feel.
I guess the only solace I have is that I can still feel those emotions because I have been numb for so long.

Sitting on my bed, I was looking down at my pantied crotch and felt myself getting hard.

Before I knew it, my head made it's appearance over the top of my skimpy panties.

A drop of precum leaked out of my slit and glistened like a jewel in the light, I knew that it would be like nectar from the gods.

Now, I've never been able to before but when I bent down to try to taste it, I managed to reach down far enough to stick my tongue out to touch the droplet, and boy, was I right. It tasted salty and delicious.

I knew I had to have more, so without thinking, I bent down some more...

Oh, my, flyting spaghetti monster!!!

I had my head in my mouth!!! And it felt so fucking good!!!

To be continued...

Ok, I only lasted 2 hours with the plug in. Not quite the 8 hours I was hoping for but I guess this is the first attempt.

It did feel uncomfortable at the end of the two hours - in fact, it was uncomfortable 1.5 hours in but I persisted determined to get to 2 hours.

I think I need a more comfortable plug - one with a longer neck that will stay in more securely.

Time to go shopping

XXX
V

For those who want to know, this is the plug I am using:


I goes in real easy (with lube) but also come out easy when standing up.

Anyone have suggestion for a plug that is more "secure"?

Ok, had an "accident". I need to learn the difference between the "normal" plug and time to purge.

After evacuating my lower intestines and cleaning up, I am plugged again - this time with less lube.

Live and learn.

I've read two blogs where guys have gotten into wearing butt plugs all day. They describe the pleasure they get from it and it sounds so good.

So, that's what I am trying today.

After the morning shower, I douched and then inserted a small tunnel plug.

I am still getting used to it. For instance, farts are harder to control - they just come out.

Another thing that has just come out is the plug. Twice.

I think I've used too much lube and my sphincters haven't relaxed enough so they squeezed when I was standing, leading to the ejection of the plug.

The lube has also soiled one pair of undies and shorts.

So I have changed and now that I am sat in front of the computer for today's work, the plug should stay in more.

I am hoping to get to the stage where my hole is relaxed enough to gape.

I'll let you know how it goes.

XXX
V

One thing that really gets me going is a well groomed pubic hairstyle.

I used to like total baldness but now I maintain a thatch of hair and like seeing it one others.

Personally, I use a epilator for an quick going over every few days and tweeze the regrowth every day. I keep a pair of tweezers by the toilet and do maintenance when I am sitting on the throne.

What I'd like to know is how you do your grooming?

Please comment below to let me know your technique and frequency.

Of course, it started with liking my own. It brought me great pleasure playing with it.

But then the internet, and specifically this site, has shown me cocks of various size, shapes and colours.

And I love it!

Am I gay?

No - certainly not!

Am I bi-sexual?

Yes!!!

I just woke up from my first dream of a gay sexual encounter.

To be honest, it wasn't an especially sexual dream.

I was on a moving bus with a mission to destroy it by distracting the bus driver sexually.

So the "sex" part was me unzipping him to reveal his small cock.

I tried to suck it but there wasn't much to put in my wet mouth.

Then I just stroked and pumped it until he came.

And I woke up at that point.

I find it a bit disappointing that my first was of a small cock but beggars can't be choosers.