lacyfem3's blog post - Diverging From Story

I just had a wonderful massage which I always love to have and don't jump to conclusions as there was no happy ending. This masseuse we used for a long time and when I first used him I got a hard on and I'm 8" when hard that was rocking and so wanted him to finish it but he was a straight. He didn't know I was queer at all as he massages my wife too. He said it happens once in awhile due to the feeling generated by the massage. I so would have paid him extra to blow me or just give me a hand job. Didn't happen. So today same guy with a wonderful massage and all I could think about was not my erection but how queer I've become, how I love a man making love to me more than a women and so feeling needed by a man. Would so love to cum out of the closet but there would be too much pain to many so I remain closed but immediately put on a pair of panties got a glass of Gentlegurl Jack and here I am like a gurl pouring my guts out. What does a gurl to do? Many post a lot of sexual experiences and I've had mine but not enough as so closeted but wondering why as I sit here in this silky pantie which outlines my cock so delightfully as men have noticed and enjoyed. This is like therapy for and like cumming out as those that can relate will read and hopefully reply. I know when I post this that my panties will be wet and I'll cum and then I'm good for awhile playing the straight father and husband but I'm not that man but the gurl that's under. Hugs to those of you who read this and do hope to hear from you.... Lacyfem