I dressed this morning for a few hours.Felt good but still dont feel back to my old self

I have been wearing for quite a while, probably around 30ish years. Early on it was strictly panties. Then I started getting into more lingerie, bras and bathing suits. But at that time I was a man wearing women's underwear. It was taboo and fun. There 2 or 3 purges that happened at during time.

Divorced my first wife and remarried a few years later. Other than some panty play with her there was no dressing.

About 10 years ago I started dressing again but this time it felt different. It was more about looking female than the kinky man wearing panties thing.

Over the past 4 or 5 years I have expanded to wearing women's clothing too. Wig, breast forms, shoes, purses, jewelry...even bought women's sunglasses and reading glasses. Now I'm in the early stages of makeup.

For me, this feels like who I am. I want to dress all the time. I also have started going out in public dressed to shop. LOVE shopping as a woman!

My wife does not know. Even though I have worn panties for her she would not approve, especially me meeting men for sex.

Though there have been a few times where I haven't felt the need to dress I'd say the desire has never left. If anything, that desire has magnified over the past 2 years.